ALL IS WELL IN THE LAND OF DANYEL

Curious

I never told my parents, but everybody knew,
There was nowhere I could turn, and nothing left that I could do,
I’d see a pretty girl in town, and die a bit inside,
While desperately trying, increasingly failing to hide,
This lie, this truth, whatever it is, it’s clear in black and white,
People speak about me, laugh at my breasts and honestly, they’re right,
It’s me who spent time running, while my friends sat kissing boys,
And for my sixteenth birthday, I asked for plastic blow up toys,
While the others lost their virginity, I sat and watched gay porn,
And ended up left miserable, lonely, fierce and torn,
My first kiss was with a straight girl, who was drunk and playing dares,
I don’t care too much for strap-ons, I just want someone to care,
We could live in a one-bed flat, our periods fall at the same time,
We could spoon and kiss and share our baths, we’d get along just fine,
But girls ‘round here aren’t curious, they’re all after big strong men,
Who can pick them up and spin them around, time and time again,
But boys are useless, boys are heartless, they don’t listen, love or feel,
I’ve got more metaphorical balls than any of them have real,
Now I’m twenty-three, living alone, losing faith in faith itself,
There’s nothing more, and nothing less, and almost nothing else,
I saw a guy, with long auburn hair, he whistles as he walks,
And he dresses so provocatively, smiles widely as he talks,
My eyes still wander from breast to breast, but part of me now thinks,
That I should approach this man and meet up for a few or twenty drinks,
We’d go back to his, ‘cos mine’s a mess, and do whatever straight girls do,
While I wonder what parts of my life have been fake, confused or true,
Damp duvets will smother us, and hairy arms will wrap around,
As I sleep and dream of what Freud would say, while not muttering a sound,
After all these years, led on by girls, it’s been well worth the wait,
Darling dear man whom I pass in town, I think you’ve turned me straight.

Danyel Faddes

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